Sunday Night Sleep

today started out with a suck….actually, the sucking began last evening. for some reason (i have theories) i can never get a good night’s sleep sunday night whenever i have to get up on a monday morning.

a few years ago i had a bout of insomnia — that was pretty miserable. i used to go three or four days getting maybe 5 hours of sleep, total. but as is the case with most bouts of insomnia, i was never tired during the day. mostly i just spent my days walking around like a zombie (a reoccurring theme here at the blog recently), a little disorientated and pissed off. at night i just watched a lot of television and spent many hours reading as i tried, in vain, to get some shut-eye.

so, it’s always with some familiarity that my late sunday/early morning monday hours are spent lying in bed awake with no hope of getting a good night of rest. however, the difference now, is that i wake up the next morning — or perhaps more appropriately get out of bed the next morning — really, really, really friggin tired.

I had to purchase a venti iced coffee just to make it home from teaching this afternoon — if i hadn’t, i probably would have fallen asleep at the wheel and crashed…i suspect this would have been bad, though it probably would have allowed me a few hours of needed sleep - assuming i didn’t kill myself, in which case i would have never been tired again.

usually, the rest of the week i can sleep just fine, it’s just sunday night that kills me. my guess is that my body is incapable of handling the schedule shift that the weekend hours brings. not going to sleep for a couple of nights until past midnight and sleeping till past 5:30am seems to screw everything up when sunday rolls around and i have to revert back to the work week schedule.

now, clearly, a solution would be to maintain a similar schedule over the weekend as i do during the week - this is in fact what most experts recommend for people anyways. but f that…it’s bad enough i have to get up at 5:30 5 days a week, there’s no way i’m getting up at that time by choice on the remaining 2 days (actually, experts allow you to sleep an extra 30 min without screwing up your internal clock, so technically i could sleep in until 6).

anyways - i don’t really have too much of a point here, other than the fact that i’m really tired right now. i did take a brief nap this afternoon, but didn’t want to sleep too much, lest i screw up tonight’s chances of getting a full night of zzzz’s.

alright…i’m gonna go now. i sound like a walking advertisement for ambien.